I really like Neon Genesis Evangelion. I think it’s highly compatible with both Buddhism and Judaism.

It’s a neat anime whose theme of “death = unification” is something that I don’t see a lot of modern media exploring.

I don’t think passing away is always a bad thing. It can definitely be a release from suffering.

I definitely think life is worth living and think suicide is often a bad thing, but I support the concept of MAID or euthanasia for those whose quality of life is awful. It makes me think about my late mom: In her last months, she suffered so much.

This is a stub, a TODO item for myself. I want to make a list of my fave games, minecraft modpacks, music, movies, and books.

Another TODO is to make a webring, since I’ve entirely ditched social media. It’d be neat to have a real RSS feed that I control and avoid getting oneshotted by bots and recommendation_watchnext.serve()…

Games

SNES

Metroid …uh…the one with the grapple hook…

GBA

Metroid Fusion Metroid Zero Mission Summon Night Swordcraft Story Summon Night Swordcraft Story 2 Summon Night Swordcraft Story 3 (English Translation Romhack) Castlevania Aria of Sorrow Castlevania Syphony of the Night Super Mario RPG

I’ve been having a lot more dreams about fractals.

I think that biology is obviously fractal, just go look at a sunflower or a brain.

But computing has long been non-fractal. I only think the fractal nature of information processing is more obvious because LLMs and AI allow us to organically “grow” code as one would grow a sunflower.

Yeah, it’s really weird. But a good thing. It’s like we’re growing a new kind of organism made entirely out of data.

I just deleted my LinkedIn account. It feels fantastic to be rid of it. I’ve gotten rid of my Facebook account as well.

About 3 times a week, I get calls from recruiters and cold calls from companies I’ve never heard of. I’m hoping that entirely ceases now.

Yeah…that’s kind of it. I’m going to post here and try to do decentralized microblogging. I’m sick of corporations pushing their constant stream of mildly stimulating 10-second videos down my throat.

I host self-hosted AI models on a dual-CPU desktop that has a 24GB AMD GPU. It’s neat but surprisingly slow and can’t handle models whose .gguf files are larger than like, 9GB.

Despite this limitation, I was able to make a toy demo where I use an AI model to continually update and edit a Git repo.

https://github.com/meltingscales/pillbugplants

I’ve learned that “Aider” is a neat, young, and somewhat buggy AI coding tool to rival Claude’s CLI.

I’m having this weird, creeping feeling of dread as I read more news.

I’m middle class. I make a decent salary. I own a home and have a mortgage.

But… I could become homeless, if I make enough mistakes in my life.

That’s pretty scary. I think America’s leaders need to actually try to support homeless people. Truly they represent an underclass with no voice.

https://adarook.bandcamp.com/album/unkillable-angel

This album, UNKILLABLE ANGEL by Ada Rook, rocks.

It’s excellent.

That’s it. That’s the whole review. Go listen to it.

UPDATE 05/02/2025:

This album means a lot to me. As someone who feels like a kid stuck in an adult’s body sometimes, this album talks about that.

It talks about how early trauma can warp and distort you, and make you act out constantly.

It also talks about the raw joy that comes from being a kid, and how it can feel lost sometimes as an adult.

Corporate america seems addicted to acceleration and causing burnout.

I recently read a Microsoft article about AI, about “Frontier Firms”.

https://www.microsoft.com/en-us/worklab/work-trend-index/2025-the-year-the-frontier-firm-is-born

I think America needs to slow down.

When I read Microsoft’s article about “Frontier Firms”, I just fear that companies will use this as an excuse to fire workers and replace them with AI agents, and then over-work existing “high performing” employees.

What’s the difference between “malware” and “software”?

In my opinion, it’s the human who labels the code that. Code is merely a mechanism to modify data. It has no emotions, intent, “inherent evil-ness”, etc. Do hammers enjoy being used to hammer nails?

A gun is an inert piece of metal. So is a screwdriver, or a hammer. You can use them to hunt for food and build a house, or to hurt other people. Are they “safe”? When are they not “safe”?

A poorer black friend of mine, let’s call him “M”, with friends in O-Block (a dangerous south suburb/flat complex), recently described some interesting concepts to me.

• Poor people suffer orders of magnitudes more than wealthy people.
• Most wealthy people operate on autopilot and lead far more stable and peaceful lives than very poor people.
• The world is an unfair place.

1. White people love saying slurs for some strange reason (Extreme entitlement, lack of introspection)
2. American individualism is bad for the collective, good for the individual, and explains the phenomenon of entitled social interactions like “Karens” (example)
3. Racism is a learned behavior and can be inherited

An example: When you grow up with a $500,000 inheritance in the suburbs, and your father watches Fox news and makes fun of the “retarded protestors” that are angry about how George Floyd was murdered, you might think it’s hilarious and learn that it’s a form of humor.